Thursday, May 26, 2011

Happy Anniversary or not…

I joked with my husband yesterday that I will have to spend the rest of my life being disappointed. It was our 3 year anniversary. I went all out, I planned everything, I made dinner, and desert, I got him a gift, and even arranged for my mother to take the baby for a few hours so we could sit home and watch a movie uninterrupted. A lot of people might think we wanted grown up time but we just wanted to watch a movie. It’s sad.

So, anyway, here I am, working my butt off, and I look over at my husband and say: “You better realize how lucky you are; a lot of women expect dinner, movie, flowers and chocolates for their anniversaries.” He didn’t really reply. You see – I didn’t get a gift. It hadn’t arrived yet, he knew that it hadn’t arrived and he didn’t bother to pick up anything else for me. NOTHING! I know it’s not about things, I just wish he would find a way to show appreciation for all of the things that I do every day. I wish he would find a way to show me that I do matter, that I am more than just a cook and a maid and a bedwarmer. My present did arrive today. It’s a lovely locket that I asked for. He picked it out, but I did have to order and pay for it since he doesn’t have a paypal. So it wasn’t even a surprise. I know that it cost $3.00 so I also know that it wouldn’t have been a big deal for him to pick up some flowers. I guess I just have to get over it.

So about the mom part. Having a night without the baby was so so so nice. Don’t get me wrong, I love C, he is the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me and when he laughs and smiles I fall in love all over again. I also had a really hard time not calling my mom every ten minutes to check in with him. I am thinking about maybe letting her keep him over night some time. It might be nice to sleep for an entire evening.

So I know I may sound like a selfish person, but I really did have a nice day, after we left the baby I drove to the park and we took some pictures and walked by the lake. I love spending time with my husband, and really spending time with him really is a gift. I just take it for granted sometimes.